Writing's mood kicks in so yeah I'm back!
I want to do a recap over the things that happened this year, it might be a lengthy post... well, it might not be... well it depends...
To start off, it's already my second year of degree. Life is still hectic but I think I am even more organized this semester compare to the last two semesters. #proud I still join loads of projects in college to collect some merits (and experiences) so as to stay in college. But this year, I decided to step out of my comfort zone!
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18/11/2017
I have always been the kind of person who involved more in organization compare to sports and basically all the competition that requires talents (because I don't have any talents). You want me to talk, I can talk, you want me to organize events, well I probably can but I can never do sport or sing or the things related to that. But this semester, I decided to give Sukmum and Feseni a try.
(Before I proceed, Sukmum stands for Sukan Mahasiswa Universiti Malaya and Feseni stand for Festival Seni. Both are competition whereby the college will send students who are good in sports and have talents in singing, dancing, etc to compete with other 11 colleges. Students who joined Sukmum and Feseni have higher chance of staying in college compare to those who only involve in college projects. Merits for both are high too ehe!)
So for Sukmum, I was approached by Fina, the Softball manager if I wanted to be a part of the team. Of course, I was hesitant back then because first, I am not a sports person. Second, I have NEVER joined any sports competition in my whole life. In fact, I barely know what Softball is like how does this game even works?! Despite of my low self-esteem, Fina and Nisha convinced me that they'll train me until I know how to play. Plus point, everyone else is beginner too, so yeah... I wasn't the only one.
My first ever training was... so bad. I was playing throwing and catching (T&C) when the self-proclaimed 'soft'ball hits my face. Kid you not humans, softball is NOT soft. IT'S FREAKING HARD. Ever since that day I had a trauma with the ball. By then everyone knows I "takut bola". When I was supposed to move in the direction of the ball to catch it, I will move to another side to avoid it. It's not fun playing T&C with me because of that haha sorry guys, I just can't. :(
It took me weeks to finally get used to catching balls. But I still had hard tough times trying to throw the balls in straight direction and stop giving fly balls. I tried batting too, but my batting skill was not really that impressive compare to the rest. Because of these reasons I often had this thought to quit Softball. Like, what's the point of playing if you don't know how to play? Memalukan diri sendiri je. I looked super and terribly lame kot pft smh. I had this thought when I was walking back from my faculty to college, when I looked at my bed and craved for evening nap (because our training is at 5 p.m. till 7 p.m. EVERYDAY and letting go of my evening nap is like the biggest and hardest sacrifice I've ever made in life!!!). I had this thought almost everyday especially on days when I did bad during our training. But I restrained myself from telling Fina.
#issokay #itsgonnabeoversoon #itbetterbe
I'll like to quote what a friend of mine said to me, "If you have time to do sport despite the hectic time in faculty, you can consider yourself lucky enough". It's true. If you can do sport despite your busy time trying to gather yo' shitz togetha, you are lucky enough. Sports is more than sports. It's more than showing your talents to everyone. It's about how you manage your time (typical essay's content). I am not kidding when I said that this first semester of my second year was such a pain in the ass. I tried so hard juggling my time between my studies, assignments, tutorials, sports, projects' meeting. And when I'm able to endure every week, I FELT SO DAMN PRODUCTIVE. Well, the side effect of training is that I'll get tired so fast at night. I would want to sleep even when it's not 12 a.m. yet. So because of that, I tried finishing my tutorials during the day or during the weekend. Same goes to my assignments (except for mooting which I skipped my one week of training to freaking settle that thing haha).
Well over times, I build confidence to catch the balls even though there are times when you can see I was trying to catch and avoid the balls at the same time. Thanks to my teammates for not giving up in me. For consistently give me support to get through the hard training till our tournament. Lots of love!!!
Fret not humans. I didn't play on the tournament day because of the obvious reasons but whatever we win anyways!!!
We be kickin' ass that day and got 2nd runner up; which fyi, it was the first time in forever KK2 girls' softball team made this far.
Congrats to the boys' team too!!!
So the next question is: would I join softball again?
I seriously have no idea. I mean, it's great to learn all the techniques and theory of softball. But it needs lotsa commitments to be in the team and considering my very poor skills, I don't know if I want to play again next year or whenever (if I ever get to stay college again). But who knows? Our desire changes over times right... hehe.
Picture of the whole team #softballfambam
Gons miss 'em <3 p="">
Anyways, I got my first ever jersey with my name on it too omg!!
ZFRA, 22.
Even though I didn't play, I play a big role in psycho-ing the opponents ok!
"Pitcher ball, pitcher ball, pitcher main bowling" and that's the highlight of my day.
That's for Sukmum... as for Feseni uhm... let it be a secret for now takut tak jadi masuk pula kan. I'll surely update about everything I do as a first timer, dun wurreh.
Update for my study: Second of year of degree doing just fine! I love this sem's subjects more than last year. Hopefully I can do better this semester. Pray for me xoxo.
Till then!
Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.