Brief updates, if you care

 Hello my non-existent readers.

Quick updates on my current life!

1) MARRIED LIFE

As you guys have already known, I am married to the love of my life early this year and been gaining lots of weight ever since. (psst, having husband means you have to eat dinner every night or he will play his "Ala, you tak nak teman I makan ke, tak nak makan jugalah" and you both ended up eating maggi regardless because of the sounds make by your stomach--)

2) CHANGE OF WORK PLACE

Alhamdulillah, earlier this year I was at a different firm located in Kelana Jaya. The distant costed me a lot, roughly almost 10MYR spent on tolls only and 4 hours of congestion back and forth. I was glad I started practicing as Conveyancing Lawyer and have kak Sheila, as my supervisor before I moved to a firm in Putrajaya and handle files on my own from A-Z.

But this time around, no more traffic problems, get to be home before 7 and do stuff/watch K-dramas before I called it a day.

3) BESTIE MARRIED

Raja's already married last 11.11.2023 and I was one of her bridesmaid - need to record this because it'll probably be my first and last! 

4) GOING TO COLDPLAY'S CONCERT THIS WEDNESDAY, 22 NOVEMBER 2023

I was all excited I actually tried to memorize all the songs lyrics!!!!! Can't wait for it, for real!!!!

So, that is all I guess? For now. May days to come filled with more exciting things to do.

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.

MARRIED LIFE

 Honestly married life was fun.

I am blessed with a husband who's kind enough to help me do house chores when I am busy with my syariah studies (which is not fun at all but that's for another story). He would also help me cook for tomorrow's lunch so I could save money to buy a brand new gold bracelet hehe and do the laundry on the weekend.

Couldn't have made life without my husbaby honestly.

As at 12.07.2023, 10.50 p.m. he was sitting beside me talking about his friend's hotwheels as he just finished goreng ayam and masak nasi for my lunch and I was supposed to finish up my assignment but here I am, procrastinating.

Thank you and I love you ab sayang.

Degree is a scam

I have been doing some research about make up artists these days for my wedding preparation. Do you know that some of them charged their clients up to 1,000MYR per session?! That is for one client. Now imagine if they have like 5 clients per day... easy 5k secured!! Of course it requires skills but gdi what's the whole point of pushing through those 5 years of law school if you can just brush up your skills by watching tutorials and practicing at home? Plus, Degree itself is A SKILL man SKILL to effing help you guys get lower sentences, your money back, or even buy a house!!!!!!!

It doesn't make sense. But these business people really know their worth. While us, so-called lawyers are still very much underpaid. Even though most of us already voice out our frustration, talk about rights and MORE we are still at a stagnant point. Nothing improves. Literally nothing. In fact the boomers keep on comparing their ways of living with ours which I tell you - HAS TREMENDOUS DIFFERENCES.

I hate y'alls. Having degree supposed to be worthwhile. But no. You made us think its a scam instead. No wonder the kids these days no longer want to pursue their education at a higher level. For what anyways? To feel more unappreciated? ya' right. Go kiddos, fight for what you think is worth it. 

I AM GETTING MARRIED - BRIDEZILLA MODE ON!

 Quick update just because I feel so overwhelm with life.

There are just so so so many things to think of that I couldn't sleep well last night. Now I am at the office, like a true zombie. It's only 9, guys! Anyways, let me dump my thoughts over here so I could be a little at peace- I am getting married next year yay ok but now do I need bridesmaid? RM1000.00 to spend on bridesmaid attire only oh my oh no.What my goodie bags should be- Glass, spoon and fork, basic cookies, homemade choc?! How about our honeymoon? when, where, wait hol' up do we even have extra money for that?! Not to mention, though I have booked my wedding planner and solemnization attire, I have no idea how everything's going to look like because most of the meet ups will be done reaching the end of October. 

I know you guys probably be thinking "Calm down. Chill. You still have 3 more months to prep for everything" but dang... How can I...when Syafiq's reception/Majlis Sambut Menantu which would be done after my reception (late January 2023) already started asking us about our preferred wedding dress, foods, and invitation cards. I mean WHAT THE ACTUAL EFF IS HAPPENING my side hasn't even started how am I supposed to make decision for guy's side?! Gila. 

I swear nothing has been easy for the last two months. A lot of fights, arguments and disagreements happened. A lot of them but we need to persevere aite? I loathe this kind of moments mainly because of the anxiety and adrenaline rush that comes together. It kept me awake at night, overthinking about a one day event that have yet to happen in the future. Truly sucking out the energy in me (also money because we are broke af).

Also because the commitments that come once I get married is making me crazy. Now, we have cars, house, bills, foods to pay and what economy decided that yay it's the right time to have inflation. With OPR rate rising like it's a monthly thing now. I guess I am gonna melt myself here. Ugh you know, I wanted everything to be perfect but some things are not achievable because everything is crazy expensive these days. so yes. This is my mid-life crisis. It's (once again) crazy.

So here I am back at here because this has always been and forever will be my comfort place. I might not be here often but god knows how I miss writing. (waiting for 5.30 p.m. so I can go home now hehe).

I think that is all. Until next time peeps.

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.

late- cherry on top of cupcake

It's been almost a year since I last write here. I was talking to my therapist the other day when she explained to me about sleep hygiene activities and one of them is journaling. Instantly I thought of this blog. 

so.... I guess that's the first update of the year - I am meeting a therapist! Hahaha. I am on my second session already and I wish to continue attending every once a month for my own mental health.

Also by God's Grace, I have officially graduated and called to the bar too! After 6 months of being unemployed, attending a lot of interviews, I finally landed a job as a full-time conveyancing lawyer or as people called it- "lawyer rumah". Another surreal moment, I now have a stamp with my own name and Advocate & Solicitors beneath it, my full name on the cover letter and my own card???? Can you freaking believe that? This girl whom has no clue of what she's doing for 5 freaking years, finally a lawyer, like a legit lawyer?! I am sure I made Abah and Mama proud this time.

Did I tell you I got engaged on 20th of November 2021 to the same guy I wrote about a year ago? 

....

Dang. Everything, last year and not a single update here? I know right?

2020-2021 was the year God wanted me to learn about the reality of life after being in a controlled environment my whole life. I met a lot of people with different background and stories. Life previously was plain white papers with little dots of black turned to the color of gray and to a point it became black as a whole. I am glad I have my family, my friends and most importantly myself to pull me out of the darkness I was experiencing. But that what made you mature enough to face life right? Unlike movies and fairytales, life is more than just rainbows and sunshine. There will be heavy rains, storm and thunder, sometimes hurricane- but with God wills, it will all pass. All it takes is your determination to fight it and don't forget to do it for you.

Though I was still very much affected with things that happened last year, I decided to do 2022 differently than I ever did previously and that include: thinking before deciding and be determined enough to do what is good for me.

Cheers to 2022, also let's hope I will journal more here (no promises).

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.

Duo Travel | Day 2 | Seoul, Korea | Part I

Hello! Salam Aidiladha peeps! I'm back and I'm in the mood to write about my long postponed Korea trip. I miss being outdoor so much. It has been almost two months keeping myself indoor because I don't want to be exposed to the virus but the cases, god it feels as if we are truly hopeless. Short life update: I haven't even filed my chambering papers = I am not yet a lawyer because I didn't have the pass (MITI letter) to travel to KL tsk.

Anyways, instead of writing all specific events that's happening one and a half year ago (lol @ my procrastinate self) I think I would do photo dump instead and maybe (I said, maybe) I would highlight some parts which I still remember happening. Otherwise... Well. You still got to enjoy the pictures at least. Or you can also head to my youtube channel because I created a video about my first travel experience (pls subscribe and comments also oki!).

Elysian Skii House

look at our excited face. :')

The time while we were here is spain without the word S. It was our first time and there was literally no one to guide us. We just slide through every slopes there is hoping that we wouldn't bump into anybody. I even shouted out loud "EXCUSE ME, I AM SORRY" in public because I was scared I am going to knock some innocent Koreans. But my first slide was hella fun! Still remember how I just pushed my body and slide the first slope like a wind, I was. 

We had our first bad experience here too. It was during this lifting moment which was supposed to carry us down using this machine: 

Aisyah and I literally had no idea we were supposed to naik and turun of the lifting OURSELVES. I'm going to explain in Bahasa now because I think I would describe the experience clearer that way.

So long story short: Masa kitaorang nak naik that lifting machine untuk turun ke bawah (sebab tak reti nak ski naik ke atas), kitaorang kena naik lifting machine ini sendiri. Cuba bayangkan dengan alatan ski yang terdiri helm (macam kasut), papan ski dan tongkat ski (lol I google-d these words), kitaorang jalan terkedek-kedek dekat lifting machine tu supaya dapat turun ke bawah. Tapi Alhamdulillah, proses nak naik tak sesusah nak turun. Tapi while we were going down, it's kinda scary juga sebab rasa tak selamat. Nak pegang phone nak record scenery pun rasa macam "uhhhmmm" but I recorded a few anyways.

Masa nak turun dari lifting machine tu yang agak menakutkan sebab like I said, we were wearing all these skiing attire which is making it even HARDER to control ourselves. Sudahlah nak turun tu, kitaorang kena angkat besi yang lindung kita dari terjatuh dari lifting machine. Bayangkan pegang tongkat skii, phone etc, susahlah nak angkat guna tangan. Jadi, kitaorang pun menjeritlah, "help, help". Tapi orang Korean tu mungkin tak faham apa kitaorang cakap (husnudzon ya -..-), dia tak tolong angkat besi tu pun, tapi jerit "your pants, your pants". Rupa-rupanya seluar Aisyah tersangkut kat lifting machine. Ah sudah. Dah nak dekat dekat dengan ground barulah diaorang tolong angkatkan besi, itu pun kitaorang terpaksa melompat, terjatuh dan tersakiti oleh Korean oppa. Hshshs.

As we reached down, there was this one slope (not really that steep, but still STEEP ok for beginners) we have to slide down. While we were both sliding down, together, we collided with each other. Bayangkan bergerak dengan laju dan terlanggar. Mashallah. It doesn't hurt but our stick and board were flying to places. Tiba tiba my board dekat atas, the stick was down there somewhere and I was in the middle. I literally had to climb my way up to take the board and wiggle ourselves down. It's difficult to have to move on ice. The helm wasn't helping at all. Dahlah stuck in the middle of the slope, you imagine. It was humiliating but somehow fun. Hahaha. Then, we just wiggled through the rest of the slope cause we were scared and late to the next destination. 

happy cos I get to cross one list of my bucket list!

I thought that I would just dump photos, but it seems like I don't have enough photos to dump and I wrote longer than I should. So maybe the continuation to my second day in Seoul will be up in the next post because now, I need to shower!!!

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.

A pile of huge mess

 In case you didn't know, Malaysia is going through full movement control order (fmco) 3.0 right now. It has been going on for almost a month, yet I doubt we will seen any light at the end of the tunnel anytime soon. It is frustrating because I am restricted from doing things I want and I should do in the last one month. I tried to be as productive as I was back in fmco 1.0 but failed miserably. So here I am trying to be productive again after being a sloth for a whole one month (yup, my June is wasted!).

Breaking news: I have completed my pupillage and now remained unemployed. I don't know how long I am going to be unemployed but the anxiety is kickin' in already... I have to find work as soon as possible but right now?? I haven't even filed my chambering papers yet. To be honest, my life is a pile of huge mess and I am trying (so hard) to clean up em' up (not easy as I procrastinate on a lot of things).

I don't even know if I want to continue being a lawyer and if I do which paths are the best for me? I haven't decided and to be frank, I don't know if law is for me. But if it's not law, then what???? I only have a law degree and couldn't afford to do a double degree now that I am an adult, financially independent but also broke.

How I wish I can push the fast-forward button in my life so I would know what I should do and shouldn't do - but sigh. This is what adulting feels like I guess. Confusing. Alright. I guess that's that. A small update about what's happening in my life. There are more to it but I can't seem to dump everything in a post. If I did that, you guys will see just how messy and tangled things are and prolly regret reading this blog.

I hope my life wouldn't be as dark as Malaysia's future (seriously guys, read the news but I better not elaborate). I hope there will still be light at the end of the tunnel. Inshallah. Aamiin.

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.