#JTPRS14

I sat on the stairs with two of my friends, Sharifah Nuramirah Izzati and Syazwani Afza when tears come streaming down my face. I looked at my juniors, they were busy preparing for the event so that it would look perfect for us. Last year, it was me and of course, my team whom were given the responsibilities to organize the Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya's yearly banquet. I could see myself as I watched them running here and there, trying to sort out every problem they faced. If last year we celebrated our ex-seniors, today, they celebrated our last day as a Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya of Jalan Empat Secondary School.

It's Jamuan Tahunan Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya 2014, peeps!
 I have been looking forward to this day for the whole year! Really.

Anyway, today I spent the my day at the iOi City Mall with Rabiatul Aqillah and her sister, skating. When I got home, my junior told me that I have to be at school at 7.50 p.m., I started to get panicked. You see, I haven't decide on what to wear yet. The main theme is international but for the Form 5 students was Kesultanan Melayu. You understand what I am trying to say here? Laughs. Okay, never mind.

I tried to look beautiful as my dear junior, Amira said I have to look great during this event because I would be the "special" guest. Sort of a VIP like that.

...so, I came out with this outfit,

Thanks for the lovely handmade flower crown dear Form 4 PRS!

I love it!

Mir, I am glad you come!!

Meet Sharifah Nuramirah Izzati everyone!

She was my desk mate last year. I am so grateful for her presence in my life. I still remember the day when she get into my class, 4 Kreatif, as a new student. She sat beside me and I was the one whom introduced her to PRS when she actually wanted to be a Perfect. Thank you so much Mir Mir for becoming my friends. For helping me through my ups and downs as the Pengerusi Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya this year!

 Of course, Syarifah Nur Husna too! Too bad she couldn't make it to the event today. This girl ah, I tell you, such a helpful person. May Allah grant her happiness in her life, forever. Especially now because she had already get married! Gosh, I can't believe one of my friends is at the new stage of life. I mean, getting married at 17?! That is a long long long very very very long way to go for me. 

Oh yes, thank you for lending me your hands and play with them as I was so nervous to deliver the speech during the event. I was the first and I wasn't informed earlier so the speech was unscripted and disorganized. 

Sighs.

During the dinner!

Meet Syazwani Afza peeps!

It will take forever for me to express my gratitude for you, Syazwani Afza but please know that you are one of the reasons I survived my last year as a high school student. I have gone through a lot of unexpected thing this year with you. You know me at my best and worst yet, you still accept me for who I am. Thank you so much for putting up with me despite you have known every inch of my flaws. I love you so much!

My brother, Irfan.

With the Form 5 PRS who came to celebrate this event!

I am a bit disappointed that most of my PRS cliques couldn't come to enjoy our last day as PRS. 

Well, if any of you read this, thank you so much for helping me throughout the year. Thank you for helping me during Puan Hafsah's retiring day, teacher's day, interview for the new PRS and help me to handle PRS meetings. Thank you so much for your time!

A picture with Mama(s).

God, this will take forever but I want to thank each and everyone of you for every knowledge you have given to me. They were priceless. I am sorry if I am not that perfect leader you were looking for to help you handle PRS of Jalan Empat Secondary School but I did my very best to lead the juniors this year. Thank you so much for the help, for the knowledge, for the experience you have shared with me. They will not, ever, be forgotten. In fact, I will use them as guidance for me to be a better person and a good leader in the future. 

Much obliged, Mama Zanariah, Mama Wan Amiza Azrinna and Umi Yushamizatulfiza!

With my Form 2 juniors. They looked so gorgeous!

This time with my Form 4 junior, Insyirah. She has a beautiful voice!

Form 1 PRS. She's a lovely girl!

The photographer, Faries Fitry! He's 15!

I had so much fun today! I can't believe I am no longer the Pengerusi Pembimbing Rakan Sebaya of Jalan Empat Secondary School anymore. Time flies and I believe the Form 4 PRS will lead PRS better next year. I trust them with all my heart. I know they can do it. They prove it with the successful event!

Oh, I was nominated as the Queen of the night. 

I feel like a princess today, you know. When will I ever feel this again?! Laughs.

That is it, I supposed. Will update more soon!

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina. 

me on tv

Appeared on Malaysia Hari Ini broadcasting today, May 12th.

Even though they misspelled my name. Well, it is supposed to be Nurzafira Sabrina Zulfauzi. Even though I appeared on the television for less than a minute, I guess. Even though I looked superbly ugly. Even though I stuttered when I was talking. Basically because I was so nervous back then, I didn't know what to say.

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 I am still proud of myself.

Much obliged to those who notice my appearance, for the very first time on the television. Especially to Teacher Siti Fatimah, my Art teacher when I was in Form 2 because she was the one who told me I was on air this morning. Not forgotten, my long-time-no-see-I-miss-you friend, Nur Syahirah Saad. 

"Eh, ada budak tu masuk TV hari ini." - Teacher Siti Fatimah.

You can go to Tonton website in order to watch me (oh please, Zafira) on the television.

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.

Teacher's day.

Happy Teacher's day!

Dear Teachers, I love you and always will! In my prayes you will be cherished forever. 

Wish I could hug, even a little touch!

Mhm-hm. Teacher's day?

The worst, I suppose. For me, yes! 

Exactly the worst.

No, no, no this year Teacher's day is totally different compared to the years before. Before this, I was just a student who would be sitting at the tread association, doing nothing other than waiting for the gimics arranged by the seniors to happen. I am not anymore. I can say, I am no more an ordinary student now. I can tell you, my responsibility is bigger and heavier than before. 

This was the uniform I wore today!

I borrowed the white uniform from Nor Safi Hazirah.

And the pink cloth was sponsored by Nur Sherina Idayu.

... (Hi! Meet my seniors!) They are Form 5 students.

The rest are mine. 

"Tak malu punya budak." said Rabiatul Aqillah.

I started my day with a thought I would probably do nothing today. However, my prediction was wrong. I was asked by my seniors, Nur Sherina Idayu and Saidatul Syahirah to help them. I was asked to go here and there in order to fulfil humans' order. Seniors who involved in the program were very busy, I was in charge to handle the kids who would be doing the gimics. I was like a post woman. I think the students who saw me wandering at the assembly site were totally annoyed because I kept walking in front of them. 

"Your wish are my command."

I can say, I dealed with a lot of people today. As the consequence, I had to face some conflicts. Well, frankly speaking, I rarely communicate with people. Today was like the first time, I had to collaborate with different people who come from different Form. I needed to cooperate with seniors to ensure the program went as planned. I had to solve the problem face by the juniors about their cake. Nevertheless, I was too weak, I cried. I cried infront of my seniors, Nur Sherina Idayu, Saidatul Syahirah and Iwana Iyazi. I cried in front of my friends. I cried in front of my Counselor teacher, Teacher Zanariah. I cried in front of my juniors. I am too sensitive. I nearly give up doing my work. Everyone seemed to blame me for every conflict which had happened. They hate me, I suppose. I was useless. 

"When you are dealing with many people, you will be facing many conflicts. If you are weak, you are going to cry and give up. If you are strong, you are going to face the problem and solve it!" - Teacher Zanariah.

... And what did I do?

... I cried.

... I lost.

I told Teacher Zanariah, I even cried in front of her but she said to me, "It is forgiven if you cried but then you stand up and keep doing your work!" Teacher, you said like that because you want me to stop crying do you? Mhm-hm.

Let's forget about that, shall we? Okay. I was forced by my friends, Aisyah Nur Syasya and Qudri Aina to enter a "Selendang Competition". I refused to join at first but as they kept persuading, I felt guilty so I said yes but I would not want to be the one who-help-a-person-to-wear-the-shawl because I am seriously not good at it. They find me a partner and I would be the one who-wear-the-shawl.

Represent to you, my partner! :>

She is a Form 1 student. A fair girl, very pretty and indeed a very mature junior.

... There was a girl asked me if we are siblings. 

... We don't even look alike. 

Whoops whoops, I am pitied of this girl because she needed to collaborate with my annoying behavior. 

I am sorry! :'<

It is me after transformation made by my partner. :3

With one of the pretty contestants. 

... O'ow insecure O'ow I might not be the winner O'ow.

Okay. Okay. I told you, I agreed to join this competition right? Yes, yes I did but I never knew I was putting myself in danger. As soon as my partner transformed me from ugly to still a bad looking person, I was suprised when my friends told me I am going to be on the stage. Be like a model and do a catwalk. Well, to be frank, I was not that 'suprised', I actually did not pay any attention to whatever I was doing because I was so tired. Suddenly, someone asked me to be on the stage. I stood right next to Raz Amira. And when we were asked to walk on the red carpet, we decided to walk together.

My prediction was right. Unluckily, I was not one of the winners even though my friends were the judges. Mhm-hm. I had threaten them to make sure they would reserve me a place in the contest but they betrayed me. No, no, no I don't think so. I think it was because of my ugliness they did not choose me to be one of the five winners.

... (Psst! I think I looked good in the pictures captured by Nor Safi Hazirah and Nurhidayatul Hanani).

By the way, this is a picture of Khairina Nabila, Syazwani Afza and I. I was sweating like hell back then but they still wanted to hug me. You guys are my very very very very very best friend! :3 At the end of the day, I snapped pictures with my seniors, Nur Sherina Idayu, Saidatul Syahirah, Iwana Iyazi and Nor Safi Hazirah.

And not forgotten, I snapped a picture with Irfan. My senior. :3

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Last but not least, my favorite picture of the day!

So long humans!

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.