Degree is a scam

I have been doing some research about make up artists these days for my wedding preparation. Do you know that some of them charged their clients up to 1,000MYR per session?! That is for one client. Now imagine if they have like 5 clients per day... easy 5k secured!! Of course it requires skills but gdi what's the whole point of pushing through those 5 years of law school if you can just brush up your skills by watching tutorials and practicing at home? Plus, Degree itself is A SKILL man SKILL to effing help you guys get lower sentences, your money back, or even buy a house!!!!!!!

It doesn't make sense. But these business people really know their worth. While us, so-called lawyers are still very much underpaid. Even though most of us already voice out our frustration, talk about rights and MORE we are still at a stagnant point. Nothing improves. Literally nothing. In fact the boomers keep on comparing their ways of living with ours which I tell you - HAS TREMENDOUS DIFFERENCES.

I hate y'alls. Having degree supposed to be worthwhile. But no. You made us think its a scam instead. No wonder the kids these days no longer want to pursue their education at a higher level. For what anyways? To feel more unappreciated? ya' right. Go kiddos, fight for what you think is worth it. 

I AM GETTING MARRIED - BRIDEZILLA MODE ON!

 Quick update just because I feel so overwhelm with life.

There are just so so so many things to think of that I couldn't sleep well last night. Now I am at the office, like a true zombie. It's only 9, guys! Anyways, let me dump my thoughts over here so I could be a little at peace- I am getting married next year yay ok but now do I need bridesmaid? RM1000.00 to spend on bridesmaid attire only oh my oh no.What my goodie bags should be- Glass, spoon and fork, basic cookies, homemade choc?! How about our honeymoon? when, where, wait hol' up do we even have extra money for that?! Not to mention, though I have booked my wedding planner and solemnization attire, I have no idea how everything's going to look like because most of the meet ups will be done reaching the end of October. 

I know you guys probably be thinking "Calm down. Chill. You still have 3 more months to prep for everything" but dang... How can I...when Syafiq's reception/Majlis Sambut Menantu which would be done after my reception (late January 2023) already started asking us about our preferred wedding dress, foods, and invitation cards. I mean WHAT THE ACTUAL EFF IS HAPPENING my side hasn't even started how am I supposed to make decision for guy's side?! Gila. 

I swear nothing has been easy for the last two months. A lot of fights, arguments and disagreements happened. A lot of them but we need to persevere aite? I loathe this kind of moments mainly because of the anxiety and adrenaline rush that comes together. It kept me awake at night, overthinking about a one day event that have yet to happen in the future. Truly sucking out the energy in me (also money because we are broke af).

Also because the commitments that come once I get married is making me crazy. Now, we have cars, house, bills, foods to pay and what economy decided that yay it's the right time to have inflation. With OPR rate rising like it's a monthly thing now. I guess I am gonna melt myself here. Ugh you know, I wanted everything to be perfect but some things are not achievable because everything is crazy expensive these days. so yes. This is my mid-life crisis. It's (once again) crazy.

So here I am back at here because this has always been and forever will be my comfort place. I might not be here often but god knows how I miss writing. (waiting for 5.30 p.m. so I can go home now hehe).

I think that is all. Until next time peeps.

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.

late- cherry on top of cupcake

It's been almost a year since I last write here. I was talking to my therapist the other day when she explained to me about sleep hygiene activities and one of them is journaling. Instantly I thought of this blog. 

so.... I guess that's the first update of the year - I am meeting a therapist! Hahaha. I am on my second session already and I wish to continue attending every once a month for my own mental health.

Also by God's Grace, I have officially graduated and called to the bar too! After 6 months of being unemployed, attending a lot of interviews, I finally landed a job as a full-time conveyancing lawyer or as people called it- "lawyer rumah". Another surreal moment, I now have a stamp with my own name and Advocate & Solicitors beneath it, my full name on the cover letter and my own card???? Can you freaking believe that? This girl whom has no clue of what she's doing for 5 freaking years, finally a lawyer, like a legit lawyer?! I am sure I made Abah and Mama proud this time.

Did I tell you I got engaged on 20th of November 2021 to the same guy I wrote about a year ago? 

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Dang. Everything, last year and not a single update here? I know right?

2020-2021 was the year God wanted me to learn about the reality of life after being in a controlled environment my whole life. I met a lot of people with different background and stories. Life previously was plain white papers with little dots of black turned to the color of gray and to a point it became black as a whole. I am glad I have my family, my friends and most importantly myself to pull me out of the darkness I was experiencing. But that what made you mature enough to face life right? Unlike movies and fairytales, life is more than just rainbows and sunshine. There will be heavy rains, storm and thunder, sometimes hurricane- but with God wills, it will all pass. All it takes is your determination to fight it and don't forget to do it for you.

Though I was still very much affected with things that happened last year, I decided to do 2022 differently than I ever did previously and that include: thinking before deciding and be determined enough to do what is good for me.

Cheers to 2022, also let's hope I will journal more here (no promises).

Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.