It's been almost a year since I last write here. I was talking to my therapist the other day when she explained to me about sleep hygiene activities and one of them is journaling. Instantly I thought of this blog.
so.... I guess that's the first update of the year - I am meeting a therapist! Hahaha. I am on my second session already and I wish to continue attending every once a month for my own mental health.
Also by God's Grace, I have officially graduated and called to the bar too! After 6 months of being unemployed, attending a lot of interviews, I finally landed a job as a full-time conveyancing lawyer or as people called it- "lawyer rumah". Another surreal moment, I now have a stamp with my own name and Advocate & Solicitors beneath it, my full name on the cover letter and my own card???? Can you freaking believe that? This girl whom has no clue of what she's doing for 5 freaking years, finally a lawyer, like a legit lawyer?! I am sure I made Abah and Mama proud this time.
Did I tell you I got engaged on 20th of November 2021 to the same guy I wrote about a year ago?
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Dang. Everything, last year and not a single update here? I know right?
2020-2021 was the year God wanted me to learn about the reality of life after being in a controlled environment my whole life. I met a lot of people with different background and stories. Life previously was plain white papers with little dots of black turned to the color of gray and to a point it became black as a whole. I am glad I have my family, my friends and most importantly myself to pull me out of the darkness I was experiencing. But that what made you mature enough to face life right? Unlike movies and fairytales, life is more than just rainbows and sunshine. There will be heavy rains, storm and thunder, sometimes hurricane- but with God wills, it will all pass. All it takes is your determination to fight it and don't forget to do it for you.
Though I was still very much affected with things that happened last year, I decided to do 2022 differently than I ever did previously and that include: thinking before deciding and be determined enough to do what is good for me.
Cheers to 2022, also let's hope I will journal more here (no promises).
Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.