Quick update just because I feel so overwhelm with life.
There are just so so so many things to think of that I couldn't sleep well last night. Now I am at the office, like a true zombie. It's only 9, guys! Anyways, let me dump my thoughts over here so I could be a little at peace- I am getting married next year yay ok but now do I need bridesmaid? RM1000.00 to spend on bridesmaid attire only oh my oh no.What my goodie bags should be- Glass, spoon and fork, basic cookies, homemade choc?! How about our honeymoon? when, where, wait hol' up do we even have extra money for that?! Not to mention, though I have booked my wedding planner and solemnization attire, I have no idea how everything's going to look like because most of the meet ups will be done reaching the end of October.
I know you guys probably be thinking "Calm down. Chill. You still have 3 more months to prep for everything" but dang... How can I...when Syafiq's reception/Majlis Sambut Menantu which would be done after my reception (late January 2023) already started asking us about our preferred wedding dress, foods, and invitation cards. I mean WHAT THE ACTUAL EFF IS HAPPENING my side hasn't even started how am I supposed to make decision for guy's side?! Gila.
I swear nothing has been easy for the last two months. A lot of fights, arguments and disagreements happened. A lot of them but we need to persevere aite? I loathe this kind of moments mainly because of the anxiety and adrenaline rush that comes together. It kept me awake at night, overthinking about a one day event that have yet to happen in the future. Truly sucking out the energy in me (also money because we are broke af).
Also because the commitments that come once I get married is making me crazy. Now, we have cars, house, bills, foods to pay and what economy decided that yay it's the right time to have inflation. With OPR rate rising like it's a monthly thing now. I guess I am gonna melt myself here. Ugh you know, I wanted everything to be perfect but some things are not achievable because everything is crazy expensive these days. so yes. This is my mid-life crisis. It's (once again) crazy.
So here I am back at here because this has always been and forever will be my comfort place. I might not be here often but god knows how I miss writing. (waiting for 5.30 p.m. so I can go home now hehe).
I think that is all. Until next time peeps.
Lots of Love, Nurzafira Sabrina.